Hmm…

Reading my writings from the past has got to be one of the best experiences ever. It tells so much; how I’ve changed a lot, and how I haven’t changed at all. When I look back to my troubled days and compare them to the present, it satisfies me how much life has gotten more stable and pleasant. It’s bound to get better, so I better be ready. Have a good day folks!

Today is a sad day in my life…

My dear friend, someone whom I’ve spent my entire high school life together, is now gone. He was always beside me, whenever I’m lonely and hungry, to feed me and to rescue me from certain emergencies. Without him I may not be alive and well until today. But now he’s gone, nowhere to be seen, just disappeared in to the thin air like that. Why did he have to leave me? This is just unfair. I’ve treated him well, fed him whenever his stomach got too small, cured him whenever he was sick, but still, he had to get away from me. Why??? WHY???

MY KIPLING COIN PURSE :((((((((((((((((

Rest in peace… *plays …And the Great Cold Death of the Earth*

Just a Thought…

Memorizing is like filling up a huge, huge swimming pool with a cup. You may get tired, but the pool will never be full.

So don’t ever say your brain’s full.

I’ve heard people saying like, “If you can memorize game terms and useless memes and quotes, then why don’t you use those memory space for your academic work?”, but this is just like, “Hey, you know so many phone numbers. Perhaps you should replace those in your memory chamber with some more useful stuffs…”

The brain is perfectly capable of storing all the useless, trivial information we receive everyday, and believe me, it will never be full of information. You all know that the brain power we use is actually around 10%(I don’t know exactly but it’s really small) of what it’s capable of. So if you say one’s wasting brain space with useless stuffs, it’s just like saying he’s wasting water by drinking from a river.

Just a self-reminder and perhaps a reminder for others. 😛

So I Did This Test Involving Colors and Stuff…

Yeah I hope it was involving Colors by Between the Buried and Me, but no. Just plain colors. Anyway, I’m always reluctant to do these kinds of tests but this one really got me. I’d say about 95% of this is correct. Especially, ‘Avoids pressure from others and insists on developing his individual independence. Wants to make up his own mind with resistance from others or outside forces, and needs the freedom to make his own decisions.‘ part.

Your Existing Situation

“Creative and emotional, looking for ways to further expand those qualities. Looking for a partner who enjoys the same activities. Seeking adventure and new and unusual activities.”

Your Stress Sources

“Avoids pressure from others and insists on developing his individual independence. Wants to make up his own mind with resistance from others or outside forces, and needs the freedom to make his own decisions. Wants to be looked at as a wise individual whose opinions are respected, and has a hard time admitting he is wrong. Can be reluctant to accept or understand other people’s opinions or point of view.”

Your Restrained Characteristics

Has strong emotional demands and is picky when it comes to choosing a partner. He chooses to remain emotionally distant and uninvolved in relationships.

Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. He is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity.

“Insists his hopes and ideas are realistic and achievable, but needs encouragement and support. His self-centeredness can cause him to take things too personally.”

Current events have him feeling forced to make bargains and put aside his own desires for now. He is able to find satisfaction and happiness through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Is extremely determined to make his presence known as an important part of any team. He is flexible and able to do what is necessary to stand out from the crowd. Is willing to overcome any conflicts and difficulties that may stand in his way.

Your Actual Problem

“Needs to be viewed and respected as an outstanding individual, in order to build his self-esteem and self-worth. Resists any type of weakness and sets high standards for himself.”

Your Actual Problem #2

“Is resistant of outside pressures and control, or anything that stands in the way of his freedom to make his own decisions and plans. Works hard to establish and build his position and status.”

Writing Memories on Music

This is something pretty normal, something everyone can do and everyone probably does, but by giving this process more significance it can be something very meaningful and fun. We all know that when we hear a song/music we haven’t heard for a while, it’s not only the melody that hits your mind, but also the memories related to the song/music. For example, when you hear the ‘Pirates of the Caribbean’ theme music, your imaginary vision gets filled with images of a certain Pacific island, pirate ships, or probably Johnny Depp. This is probably because you heard the melody while watching the movie itself or the trailers. But this isn’t an exceptional case. The music doesn’t have to be something grand or loud to contain these memories, it can be anything from a pop song to a new age or jazz. Listen to the song ‘Friday’ and you’ll probably get the irritating image of Rebecca Black and her awkward dancing friend. So it’s pretty clear that music is not only about hearing, because it can store images that you saw while listening to it.

The fun fact is that this memory encrypting process can be controlled. And this is how I have fun with this process. Basically, when I hear a song for a first time and it hits me hard, I stop listening to it, then I search for images that may suit the song. Something like a starry night, or a streaming water, or a brilliant city light, or sunrise, or anything. Then when I decide on the image, I will bring my music player to the place I decided on, then I listen to the song that I’ve been ‘saving’. It doesn’t take too long. As long as you concentrate on your vision and hearing, it will probably only take about one to two spins of the song.

In the following days you hear the song, it will remind you of the image you ‘encrypted’ on its melody. I have, and you all probably have countless number of songs/music that hold clear images. Some of them might be pleasant, some might be unpleasant. And though I recommend to the readers to use this technique if you haven’t tried(I’m sure most of you have, though), sometimes, it’s best to just listen to your music without this kind of purpose, and let it naturally take hold of your soon-to-be memories.

My Summer?

Unlike most of you, I suppose (muhaha), the level of productivity I’m pulling off this summer is at the apogee. I’ve been achieving probably more than I ever did in my entire life. Here’s my daily routine: Hiking from 6:30 to 7:30 or 8, breakfast then an hour of reading random stuffs, from Korean novels to Java tutorial, an hour of C++, an hour of German studies, then prolly two to three hours of WoW or net surfing. I also play the electric drums in between these activities, and when the clock hits 4:30, I go to the gym and stay there until 7. When I come back home, I have my dinner and I go back to more studies, since gaming is not possible when my family’s around, then I sleep at 10 (seriously).

I admit, my summer’s pretty lame compared to yours, full of online gaming and offline gaming and internet surfing and jacking off and what not, but I’m sorta liking it this way. WTF?

Am I bragging? Totally. Why? I should be bragging while I still can, because Portal 2 installation’s almost complete.

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Oh. My. Daniel. Gildenlow.

Something amazing happened.

My thickest guitar string broke about 2 weeks ago. Since then, I wasn’t able to practice the song White Walls, and I was really anxious that I might forget what I learned. So just today, I really wanted to play the guitar, and I was just staring at the broken string for a while. Then, like magic, my hands suddenly reached for this book, lifted it, then guess fucking what. There was a brand-new, Ernie Ball Extra Slinky gauge 38 string. JUST THAT. As in, it didn’t have other strings except the one I needed. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. WHAT THE FUCK MAN?

So yeah, this is like the happiest day of my life. *Pink Floyd plays*

Fuck you all, I’m gonna go finish White Walls.

Day 6 – Gluttony

Oh yeah.

1. Free food always tastes better. :>
2. This is probably a habit from Korea, but I like to punch people in their arms. I try to suppress this though.
3. I’m not alcoholic, but I do enjoy alcohol.
4. I take pleasure from listening to music that other people don’t. Yeah I know, lame. 😐
5. I get satisfaction when I successfully trick someone. The trick could be in the form of hiding things, telling false information, etc. But then, I always give it away in the end.
6. Morbid jokes are my kind of jokes.
7. I sorta enjoy singing when I’m alone or with certain people. But I don’t like singing in public. Because I’m horrible.

Day 5 – Greed

First off, money’s out since that’s what we need to get material things in the first place.

1. I want a studio of my own, complete with all the instruments I need. That means keyboard, drum set, guitar, bass, and probably some other instruments like violin, cello, flute, etc. My dream is to record a song by myself playing all the instruments. It’s actually possible right now, since I know how to play guitar, bass, keyborad and drums, but I just don’t have to resources to pull it off. So, meh.
2. Extravagant, super-high-tech, ultra-expensive surround sound system.
3. High-tech earphones or headphones. I’m talking about $1,000+ ones here.
4. High-tech battle station. That means a really good desktop. I want at least three monitors.
5. An Android phone. This is actually something I could afford pretty soon.
6. A “Pet room”. This is an idea I had since I was young. I want a room dedicated just for my pets that may or may not include: snakes, lizards, tortoises, hedgehogs, ferrets, etc. The room will be temperature regulated 24/7.
7. A car. Yeaaaaaah pretty generic. Not anything too elegant though. A model ranging around Camry sounds alright.

Does this prove that I’m a quite modest person?